the sunset i wanna watch with you,baby

hiie. still alive.. sorrie weiling to scare you on wednesday. but iie really never notice tttat vehicle coming.. iie really dunnoe ttat vehicle is on its way.. ttats why. but iie okae lerrhhs. just sprain my ankle only. wunn diie derrhh larrhhs. duo worrie okae. a few days jiu better lerrhhs. bbut now much better lerrhhs =D.

haiixx. for about a month or more iie cantt go band..maybe iie will go but just to teach juniors only. haiixx. the nerve muscle of my left face is paralysed..ttats why these few daes iie cantt play my clarinet.. its called Left Bells Palsy..the name is so funny.bbut iie have noe mood to laugh..it takes about a month or more to recover.iie am feeling so sad. bbut theres nothing iie could do. iie really dunnoe what to do to help miie feel better. yesterday i cried and cried eventhough iie knew ttat iie cantt change the fact.. bbut iie just cantt help it. could you imagine yourself not able to go for band for a month or more?? and the concert is just next friday?? iie have been practising hard for the songs for a long long time just for this coming concert. and now??? it is all shattered.. you know how terrible iie feel inside my heart..

everyone just seems to concern about their problems only. what about miie? ppl are telling miie about their problems and not bothering about mine. in their eyes, its as if other ppl does not have any problems. and they are the only poor ones. what about miie? eventhough iie look happie, bbut am iie really happie?? am iie really what they see in miie?? the answer is noe. ttats not miie. iie am not happie at all. ttats not miie. ttats only what iie am supposed to be. not the real miie. its all fake. including the smiles iie put up in front of them. iie am feeling so terrible. even the person iie thought would care for miie doesnt seems to bother at all. my problems are invisible to them.

she leis.. she only cares about her sadness being with him..iie really dunnoe what to do..really feel like crying again bbut iie cantt. theres ppl everywhere. iie just wanted a place of my own where noe one sees miie. is it really so hard to have a place of my own? is it really impossible? iie guess ttat place would only be in my dreams. noe such place exist in the world. iie really wish to create it my own. bbut its impossible. it is really so tiring. why cant iie forget everything? this is the real miie. iie am only real here. no where else. bbut here!

you ppl are not miie. you will never understand miie. NEVER NEVER UNDERSTAND. you may think ttat its only a month or more and not forever. bbut to miie it seems like its never ending. a month is too long to endure. iie will really really miss band. iie am also afraid ttat iie would never be able to catch up with the others..it is just so terribe not being able to play my DEAR CLARINET!! no one understands miie.. i guess not even one.. =(