the sunset i wanna watch with you,baby

had back report book today..oh god!not as good as before..L1B2 has increase by 2 points, EMB3 increase by 4 points..wth..shit.how to improve english..percentage fallen by 0.4!luckily this is only prelim..the other subjects got improve but eng and humanities haven fallen a lot..thats why it pulled down my grades..hmm.now worrying for my o level maths prelim this thurs..eventhough the mock prelim exam was quite easy but cant guarantee that the prelim will be the same..prelim is usually very much harder..overall ok lah..got less than 10 points good enough le..this means that can go sec 5..hahas..

dunnoe wats wrong with mr oei these few days..like he had eaten bomb before coming to class..he's becoming like my dad,shouting when teaching..tats y i never like asking my dad regarding homework especially maths..he will shout like hell..mr oei really mad lorh..shouting at woon yee and yiping just because they cant give the ans..but its because they dunnoe tats y they cant give the ans mah..if they knew how to do,they wouldnt have got wrong for tat questn..need he shout?..just explain again lah..haix..fri got CL meeting..wonder what am i gonna bring cause i haven got my CLDP..currently borrowing ppl's de..after tat going to eat fish & co with zura and benneth..think nowadays will only work till 11am only bah..find quite hard to cope with studies now that n level is so near.. cause i dont feel like wanna stop work so maybe will just work till 11am only bah.see how first..actually sat work till 11am cause thought wanna go study but delon they change plan.they want to have lunch with my p6 teachers at a restaurant in J8 instead of on teachers day(mon).cause they still having their prelims..haix..maybe after lunch then see how bah..

oh god..will really chiong for N level de..die die also must chiong..

oh hell.she just called & apologised.what am i gonnna do now?..believe her again?..hate celestine for spoiling our friendship?..both?..or wat?..what is rite wat is wrong?..im confused!!how m i gonna know wanna who's rite this time?..if i believe her again, will this happen again?

8:16 PM
baby, i'm yours always

Friday, August 22, 2008

had back the prelim results le.not as good as before but at least some subjects improved alot..this is prelim.its definitely harder than the other exams.so i dont expect much too.but will definitely chiong for n level.. btw wanna thanks eugene for his own-made chem summary notes..it really helped me alot or else i wouldnt have improved alot much better..really thanks to him!

her actions on monday really woke me up..this time its for real.will never forgive you anymore..really dunnoe what im thinking these few days.. im like one big idiot thinking u have realised ur mistakes and finally know my presence..hong & i said we wanna go popular to buy some assesment books.you said you wanna go with us.when sch ended,u said u dun wanna go cause celestine dont wanna go.i said u can just go without her mah.but u refuse.ur reason was because no one can accompany u go home after tat.and so after saying so much,u just want someone to accompany u.i finally know how u make use of friends..i wasnt so mad nor sad abt this.but why must u appear at there with celestine when u intended to lie to us..why cant u go to other branch..what worse is u saw us but ur reaction was u dont know us.u could just walk away as if nothing happen.i too wanted to act blind but can i? celestine msg me saying sorry, she did nt say she dont wanna go and tat she really dont know u would 'hurt' me like this..but its ok.i knew it wasnt her.think i would die w/o u as my friend? this will never happen cause u dont deserve..i will try to forget u as once being my friend.waiting for next yr.hoping not to see u again. continue to betray me for all i care.but rest assure i will not be as black hearted as u to betray u for revenge..never ever forgive u again! even if someone beg me to forgive u, i wouldnt! i will only hate you! just one sentence of advice & tat is better change or else u wont even have one friend!

2:22 PM
baby, i'm yours always

Thursday, August 14, 2008

feel like wanna vent out all my fustrations..she's so...she really change alot..sorry ppl.posting this is just wanna say out what i really felt at this point of time..can choose not to read if u dont like..cause im really angry and sad..treat her so good and this is how she repay me..wat a fool i have been..omg.feel like crying sia..getting suspicious of ppl for no reason. watever we say,she think as we are being sarcastic.if she think wat she did is wrong or if she dont want ppl to know then why she do it in the first place?!besides blaming ppl,when will she see her fault?..tat day when i was sick and didnt go to sch,she msg me.silly me thinking she's gonna ask why i didnt come..instead,she ask me whether did i tell ppl abt she and tat idiot!ofcourse my ans is no i did not..then she ask then how come mh knows.but how the hell i knw.she then replied and ask why am i reacting like she dont trust me..she say she trust me.then why is she asking me if she trust?!she call this trust!if she really trust, she wouldnt have asked..i feel like one big idiot..jas ask me, why i treat her so good when she treat me dirt?..stupid me saying ''nevermind we are still friends mah..let her be lah..''wat a fool i have been..she listens to watever tat idiot says not us..how disappointing can this be..watever we says,she would tell him.. she betray friends like tat..stupid me crying over this..if i know this would happen once again, never would i mend this friendship time and time again when its already broken.stop acting pathetic when i ignore u.saying im the bad one and doesnt want to talk to u.stop thinking u r right everytime.telling mdm chua u have already lost ur mother and dont wanna lose ur friends..stop acting.u r the one breaking this friendship ok.dont u feel u have gone too far?!only feel u r the one being bullied.wat abt me?..why must i put up with this..ppl always says good friends are hard to find..i think so too tats why i always treasure friendship..wat bout u?..i will never mend this friendship again!u can continue to act for all i care..

1:51 PM
baby, i'm yours always

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

ytd after our poa paper,our maths teacher, mr oei ask us to wait for him in class till 1210pm..he say he wanna to talk to us abt our results..he so called 'scolded' us for the bad results for paper 1..luckily i wasnt one of them..i have maintained my standard.hahas.if not i would be the first he want to kill..POA and bio paper was easy afterall..thought it would be tough..even studied until 2am..so tired the next day..yeah 2 more papers to go before prelim ends..promise dear zura to do my CLDP on the 20th..need to go down to mac after school..my sis so fast..she finish her module one lerrh.. im still stuck in tat module..there's a dateline to it.omg.benneth promised her to do one module each week..so fast..omg..

yeah..tmr can sleep till 9am..no need so early wake up for school.. cause morning is physics paper.i dont take physics so just need to go for maths paper 2 which starts at 1030am..need to be in sch 15mins earlier before exam starts..opps..almost time le..meeting yiping and hong at 130pm. going library to study maths with them.mr oei will also be coming later. hahas..btw wont be online quite often so wanna wish angeline happie 14th birthday :] her bdae is on this friday (15/8)..hahas..she's older le..gd.gd..

12:27 PM
baby, i'm yours always

Friday, August 8, 2008

oh gosh..left a total of 12 mark questions blank..no time to write finish..oh god..there goes my geog..haix..btw, went to k box with colleagues on wed..would like to thank dear felicia for paying for us tat day..thanks for everything :]

perhaps my sis was right;i shouldnt care abt what the others think or say abt me..just do what i m suppose to do..let them think what they like..

sometimes really wonder why am i tat stupid to let ppl make use of me..

am i just a spare tyre to you?..want me to accompany you only when the others are not free..you would always act like im the bad one when i ignored u..and i always end up being the one to mend this friendship.why am i putting in all the effort when u dont? why must i? lying to me many times make me hate u..when im absent frm sch,u would only rmbr ur so called ''bro'' not me.by telling me u forgotten to tell me wat teacher said or wat i need to bring for the next lesson tells me tat u dont even bother to help me..u call this friend?do u treat me like a friend or u feel tat im just someone heaven gave u so u can take things for granted..although u have lost ur mom,but tat doesnt mean all ppl must care for ur feelings and u doesnt need to care abt ppl's feelings.we are all emotional creatures..we have feelings too.u took ppl's care and concern for granted..u r not the only one with probs.i have mine too..ask urself,did u comfort me when i was down.just a sentence of 'are u ok' is already gd enough..but did u?..were u even dere for me when i needed a friend? 4yrs of friendship and tats how lightly u took it.would always tell myself not to bother abt u but how can i?..u r my best friend and we are in same class for 4yrs..thought tat u r the one who understand me most but i was wrong.just realised tat wanhong understand me most..wanna say this to her: "thanks for understanding how i felt.most imptly,thanks for always being there for me when im down.thanks for letting me knw i still have a friend tat will always be dere for me no matter wat.thanks for saying 'you still have me'..thanks lots.. ''putting in effort alone in this friendship for 4yrs is really tiring.really tired of this.do u know how disappointed i was in u?very disappointed.it hurt so much seeing u take the things i have done for u for granted..its not tat i wanna give up,but its u who dont treasure it..dont wanna bother abt u anymore. wanna study or not,make the right choice or not,lie or not,i wont care anymore.i will do wat i say this time..u betrayed my trust in u! u gave up this friendship too!

2:15 PM
baby, i'm yours always