the sunset i wanna watch with you,baby

This song explains my feelings. Baby, i just want you to understand and tht i don't wanna lose you boy.
But i'm soo soo afraid tht you might go bonkers anytime if you continue this way :'(

okayy. I'm sooo tired recently. Guess it's due to schoool reopen and the changes in time table that made me shagg :/
I'm not only physically tired but also mentally tired.
Had a @#$%^&* tiff yesterday. But baby, i truly hope you could understand me.
You did not know how much it hurts me to see you not understanding me at all.
Perhaps i did not understand you as well or, I'm losing my understanding in you.
And, i don't know why it happens.
There are a lot of things on my mind. Like really a lot.
I wanna know what were you thinking.
I wanna know if you do take my words seriously since you don't seems to hear what i actually wanted.
I wanna know if you cherish me as much as i cherish you.
I wanna know if you're still hiding any issues from me.
And many many more.
Baby, BUT ONE THING FOR SURE IS I LOVE YOU.❤
I just want you to understand how hurt i actually felt whenever you start kicking and knocking on stuffs.
I'm hurting.
Just like when i did %^& to myself, you starts your violence again.
You can't take it can you?
I'm feeling just the same as you or perhaps worst?
It's just tht i'm trying my best to conceal my inner emotions.
If i forcing myself to try my best to conceal, why baby you couldn't?
I felt like i was being thrown in a big big jungle by you and yet trying all means to find my way out but i just couldn't. You understand boy?
Take me out. I really wanna get out of this darkness.
I do not know if you really understand me.
But i know i needed you.
I needed you to guide me, getting me out of all this shit.
I wanted a sense of security.
Not all these violence that you're showing me.
You're just making me fall deeper into the darkness.
I hope you could try to understand.
I know you're trying to make me happy and i'm happy.
But material stuffs aren't enough.
I want personality. The basic ones. Just tht.
I'm trying my best too eventhough i'm seriously hurting a lot deep inside.
BUT BOY, I LOVE YOU, STILL.❤