the sunset i wanna watch with you,baby

I left my blog dead for almost half a year but yet i have the sudden urge to start blogging again. And so here i am...

Just a quick update of what has been happening in this short 6 months plus:
1. MARCH
Internship has started and i was posted to intern at Starbucks @ Changi City Point.

Since it was so far from home, i have been dreading to go to work every single day especially when i'm scheduled to do opening which means i'll have to be at changi at 645am sharp. And this sucks. I shall just endure.
2. APRIL
On the 11th was baby's birthday! I really thought i could celebrate it happily with baby until a news struck me. My aunt had left us on that very morning. Mommy was crying so loudly the moment she received the call & it breaks my heart more. She was really the best aunt i have ever had. But heaven likes to pull jokes on us.

She had been providing support to my family since i was young, financially, and also physically. When sis fractured her leg when i was ard the age of 12, she would help my mommy to send me to school, taught me homework, cook for me, wash my laundry, etc. When mommy admitted to hospital when i was 15, she too brought me to her house, cook for me, taught me homework and does all the things my mommy would do for me. When we were facing financial difficulties, she provided all the help we could have ever ask for till we have overcome them. I'm really really grateful to all the things she had done for us. I really wished i could have been there for her wake every single day. But this internship almost took those wishes away.

Haqiem was the only one who understood how much family meant to me and thus lets me go off early without letting my boss know even till today. And if you happen to be reading this, this is why i told you i'm sincere when i said you're really kind and understanding at east coast that day. Tears, they are the ones i hate but it just kept appearing even when i'm typing these.

3. NOTHING MUCH REALLY HAPPEN BETWEEN MAY - JUNE EXCEPT DEALING WITH WORK & PEOPLE.
4. JULY
On the 14th, went back to school after so long for IIP presentation! All went well! I even met up with Jaslyn and Diana for brunch at Pizza Hut after presentation! Miss my girls lots. We catch up about life at our respective IIP company! Life really sucks big time for all of us, seriously. Sighs.

On the 16th, Boon Sen passed away, just about a week before his birthday. People who have known me long enough knew that i once worked at McDonalds' for about 2 years.

When i first joined, Boon Sen was one of the managers who treated me really well when others did not. He was also one of them who trained me well enough to be able to promote to crew leader just within four months after i joined. I miss all his jokes and laughters that he brought with every shift i work with him. He's really a great friend and a great mentor to us. I really feel that heaven is being too cruel to him. He's so young and had not enjoy being a Restaurant Manager long enough. Moreover, he's about to get married soon! Why such things kept happening to the good ones out there. Why not take all those bad ones away from this earth. I hate departures, really. I hate hearing all these news of people that are good to me leaving one by one. Why am i suppose to deal with this. WhyWhyWhy. Lots of "whys" in my head.

PS. Thanks for being such a good mentor to me, and sorry for all the troubles i gave you with our schedules in the past. I'm really grateful for all the things you have done for me, too much to be said enough.
5. AUGUST
Met up with Diana once again for dinner at Tampines after we ended work! Pour all our troubles over dinner! It's really great to have a listening ear that is willingly sitting there waiting for you to pour those troubles away. Thankyouuu dear ! (:

Many times, i wonder to myself what's the real reason behind my hatred for this internship. Is it just plain tired that i have to work everyday? Is this the only reason why i did not even think of going back after internship ends? Is it really because the pay is low? And sometimes i'm afraid that the reason is because it has tried to robbed me off my only chance to meeting my loved ones for a one last time in this life not once but twice. Tears surrounds me each time this came to my mind :'(